makes sense to me. had lots of things to do, and so… nice holiday, and so glad it is over for this year. too much money spent on things that are too fleeting. but then again, the memories will be with you forever, so maybe it is a bargain. yeh.

anyway, need to ramp up business and get going along with things that need to be done.

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I did a bid and I hope I get it, on a small site, but they came to me via a search engine. Maybe things will start to pick up. The ones I am working on seem to be making some noises on getting done finally. So maybe by the end of the month, I can have some money. I sure hope so.

ACCOUNTABILITY
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Accountability is the opportunity to live at choice rather
than accidentally. Accountability is the opportunity to carve
out the future rather that to sit back and have it happen to you.
Accountability held from as stand as one’s word is the ground from
which one’s own transformation is created ongoingly.

Transformation lives in accountability. Without accounta-
bility, without committed speaking, without promises and
declarations, there is no transformation; there is, at best, peak
feelings.

A promise has real power. A promise made from the stand
that who you are is your word, engages you as participant. You
cease to be a spectator, and your words become actions that
actually impact the world. With a promise you create a condition
that supports your commitment rather than your moods. When
motivational dialog comes up about your preference versus your
commitments, and you disregard the dialog in favor of doing
what you said you would do solely because you said so, you
distinguish yourself from your psychology. In that moment you
are your word as an action, rather than only as an idea you have.

In that moment the promise becomes who you are rather than
something you said; and your relationship to the world shifts.
You find yourself producing results that seem discontinuous and
unpredictable from the point of view of the spectator. The
experience is one of joy, fearlessness, irrepressible energy and
satisfaction.

Transformation exists not only when we speak about it but
when we empower others to speak it..

… Werner Erhard

When I did the Forum back in the mid 80’s, this one statement made a difference to me. It put into words what I held at my core. I know that to hold anyone else to it is most likely not going to turn out how I think, but what is wrong with those who do not take accountability for their words, let alone actions.

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This person is doing what I will be doing in a few years. Maybe sooner.  Who knows. Sell my house here, pay off my debt, have a few bucks to build, and work from a trailer in the valley.

me be chillin, workin, shoppin, bakin, and just feeling that something is about to happen for the good.

yeah, catchy huh? but i was inspired tonight when I did a shopping run. The christmas lights on people’s bushes and the lighted reindeers, sleighs, trees, all glisten off the ice that tops the 6 inches of snow. This town here has a “tradition” of mainly white lights, and the lighted fantasys have this glow on them from the ice reflections. like they have life inside. kinda cool to see.

Got a bit of work done today, and I hope for some tomorrow, but then there is the shopping to do, and get it all done in one day.. ha ha.

same day as yesterday.

so very very tired of this crap. I hate liars

life lately is nothing short of sucky. the tax collector demand for payment, which means an additional $200 a month. The oil that I need, again, which will cost $450. The late payment from mr. wahwahwah every month. The lack of payments from clients, and the lack of any new contracts lately. This is beginning to suck.

I looked at expression engine just now. I am wondering if I should go in and give it a try. I can then import all my pMachine posts. and then see if I can import these posts. I think I am going to give it a try. Hell, if I learned how to do a custom WP blog, why not EE?

Oh, and the snow? yup. got it. had enough of it already.

Heard from Lauren yesterday. She did not sound all that great, kinda like it was either overwhelming to be with these people all day long, or she was homesick. I doubt that part. I do know that she is worried about her bill. She may not have enough money to pay her onboard things. Oh well! life is tough huh?