yeah. I woke up at 6:30 with my alarm, which is my attempt at a bit of normalcy. A habit. if I could just get the going to bed at a specific time part normalized, I might start liking it. Listened for a few minutes to the radio, why I have it tuned to the local AM radio is beyond me, and then turned it off instead of the snooze. Dog bopped in at 7:30. He is just so cute in the morning. Let him out, and instead of my usual sit on the porch and wait, I turned around and went back to bedroom and flopped on bed. I must have fell asleep cuz next thing it is 8:30. I realize that I left dog out, just as I hear Mike let him in. Lazed around for a few more, and then decided that since it is OMG SATURDAY, no biggie on staying in bed.

So here I am. It’s warm out, and yes, still raining, and raining hard. Sitting at my dining room table with MB, I have yet to name her, I am chillin. I’ve got a list of things to get done in the house today, mostly cleaning related, since I have not done a BIG clean for some time now. I’ll do a quickie then start the BIG one. One room at a time. Every day a part of it. Saturdays a huge chunk of it. Suspend working for a living, instead work to live better. I am ripping out a carpet in this dining room. It is old, and ugly and I need freshness in here. Somehow find nice area rug for here, that is large enough when I do the holiday set up, it covers. Have to go to store for ingredients for tomorrows dinner, lasagna. mmmmmm

so. off I goto work. Gotta get my music cranking up here as well.. hmmmm

Tropical Storm KYLE

oh just fucking wonderful. I thought we would get off this year. It is already soaking rain out, from the other storm, and now this one will be heading our way in two days. I’ll have to get some stuff taken care of in the yard.

falling asleep here, as usual between 1 and 2 Pm every day. Want to take a nap. But, I cannot be away, I must do work. Been sleeping fitfully, probably because I am consuming caffeine late in the day. In the form of a Moxie. ummm yeah, Moxie. Yesterday I had tea instead at 2. nice. but no teamaker here today. so. I either nap or have a jolt of sugar zoom zoom. Now I know that I will not sleep well tonight, will toss and turn for an hour, and all night be fitful. Thus the cycle. Plus, I do seem to be achy all over. I don’t think I am getting sick, but?? I can feel every inch of my body, moreso that normal. the curse of the hyper-sensitive.

today would have been my 31st wedding anniversary. I should instead celebrate the anniversary of the divorce. In a way, a much more character building event. But oh well

ScLoHo’s Really?: Over 270 OnLine Business Tools

Need to go over these and add to BS blog the ones that pertain to web design businesses. Already have one as an alternative/addition to Basecamp. Qcron. Giving it a try

tell me it is not right around the corner, please. PLEASE. So, to celebrate, I will do a 30days here. and try real hard to do it on the BS blog as well. And to push my creative juices into overdrive, I will do a pic of the day! wow. hmmmm ok…

or thee, take your pick

after a week of outstanding weather, it has gotten cloudy. I did not get out much last week, besides the client work I needed to get done, there was the “need to stay by my phone for that big phone call” mentality. I did sit out back for a bit each day. Did not ride the bike, although I should.

today I am having for my nibble lunch some brie and triscuits. the rosemary and olive oil ones.

num num

and a call did come in today, could be a good one. so, my trepidation about future work is allayed. Have three food sites now, that is it. not a good thing when you are trying ever so little to lose weight.

so, off to designing land I go.

lovin that i can be in bed and still be on the puter.

I’ve been waiting on my offspring here, in my car, yet again, for over an hour. she can’t text from her phone so I have no idea how much longer. I am uncomfortable, my butt is not liking the car seat. wish they were flat instead of bucket that is made for skinny asses.
this exercise I have done before, and I have forgotten how to just sit. I truly wish and hope that she is finally learning that her drinking is going to cause more bad than she can imagine. she said yet again that she has stopped, and wants to make meetings this week, but does not know how she can do that with work, no car etc etc, yadda yadda yadda. all stuff I have heard a hundred times if not, a thousand times before. why should I believe that this time she is telling me the truth. highly doubtful that she is. my patience in these matters I guess is the patience of a mother. but in the days since I returned from vacation, I question my choice of having children in the first place. it ain’t been nothing but u-ncompensated work now for 30 years.
I want to ride my bike today.
her damned PO did not get into the office until 8:45, instead of her advertised 8am. Lauren is being cut some slack, but has to go back every 2 weeks now, and get signed off by AA. I do not know how many meetings she has to do, but i guess I will help her with that as well.
man, i need to ride bad.

I was supposed to head to nyc tomorrow for the web 2.0 expo, catch a couple keynotes, but alas, I am going to give daughter a ride to her PO in the morning and if she is not violated on her probation, then take her off to work. I am praying that they don’t violate until after conviction. pray to whomever that they don’t totally fuck her over. she is the victim in this, but since she has some priors, not in this area, she may be fucked. it will do no good for anyone to do it, and I hope that it is seen like that. but, you never know. I have not much work scheduled anyway for tomorrow in case I have to go crazy.

working on getting my videos done up. I have them all n the Mac, so I am learning iMovie by trial. The first day has over 30 minutes of video. Just wondering if I should do the condensed version of the trip down state, or the full 36 minutes. then there are the other days. I may combine all of those into one since I think there is no more than 20 minutes of that.

I’ve been real tired and not feeling well. prolly cuz of my daughter’s woes. again. sometimes i wonder what life would have been if I had been childless. the grief and pain they bring, often makes you forget the good stuff. I’ve not had much good stuff from either of them. oh well. payback i s’pose.

off to edit.